By Mukund Dev Sahoo
A few days ago, during an online Dhrupad class, I had a conversation that made me reflect deeply on my own twenty-one-year journey in classical music.
One of my senior Disciples, Sanjay ji, lives in the USA. He is a professor and teaches higher studies students, and for the last several years he has been learning Dhrupad from me online.
Although he is my disciple in Dhrupad, I often feel that I am also learning from him. His professional experience, his way of observing things, and the questions that arise from his own life give me an opportunity to look at my own practice from a different perspective.
During the class that day, there was a particular swara that had to be placed slightly higher. He sang it a little lower than required. I corrected him and said that the swara needed to be taken slightly higher.
He immediately replied that he already knew it had gone lower.
Then he said something that stayed with me:
“If I knew it was supposed to be higher, how did I still miss it?”
He called it a missed opportunity—an opportunity to establish the swara firmly at that particular moment.
He then gave me an example from volleyball.
He said that despite having many years of experience playing volleyball, whenever he misses a shot, he sometimes becomes upset-not because he does not know how to play, but because that particular opportunity existed only for a moment. Once that moment passes, it can never return in exactly the same way.
Then he smiled and said something even more profound:
How many such opportunities have we missed in life—opportunities that existed only for one particular moment and could never come back?
His words touched me deeply.
It was his Dhrupad class, but somehow, I felt that I was receiving a lesson from him.
And this made me look back at my own twenty-one years in music.
Opportunity or Responsibility?
Today, when I look back, I can say with great gratitude that learning music from my revered Gurus was one of the greatest opportunities of my life.
But when I was actually learning from them, I never thought of it as an “opportunity.”
I thought of it as a responsibility. The responsibility to sing the swara correctly. The responsibility to practise sincerely. The responsibility to preserve what my Gurus were giving me. The responsibility to serve my Guru. And above all, the responsibility to live the music, not merely learn it.
From 2013 until October 2019, I would go to my Guru’s home almost every evening. I spent time with the entire Guru family and considered every opportunity to serve them as my responsibility.
Some of my deepest learning did not happen during a formal music lesson. It happened in moments of silence. It happened while sitting near my Guru. It happened while massaging his feet and listening to his experiences. It happened through conversations, observations, discipline and simply being present. Those moments taught me things that no textbook could have taught me.
That is when I began to understand that Guru-shishya parampara is not merely about transferring musical knowledge. It is about transmitting a way of living.
Responsibility Changes the Way We Learn
When we think of something as an opportunity, there can always be a fear of losing it.
“I must not miss this opportunity.”
“What if I fail?”
“What if I don’t make the most of it?”
But when we begin to see the same thing as a responsibility, something changes within us.
Responsibility creates commitment. An opportunity can be missed. But a responsibility asks us to return again and again. If I consider Dhrupad merely an opportunity, I may practise when I feel inspired. If I consider Dhrupad my responsibility, I practise even when I do not feel inspired. If I consider my Guru’s teaching an opportunity, I may admire it. If I consider it a responsibility, I try to live up to it. If I consider the Dhrupad tradition an opportunity, I may enjoy being part of it. If I consider its preservation my responsibility, I ask myself:
What am I doing to ensure that this knowledge reaches the next generation in its true spirit?
This distinction has shaped my entire journey.
The Responsibility Towards the Swara
For a Dhrupad practitioner, responsibility begins with something very small and very fundamental:
The Swara.
Every swara is a responsibility. Where is it? How does it arise? How does it settle? What is its relationship with the previous and following swara? How deeply can we listen before producing it? In Dhrupad, singing a swara is not simply producing a correct pitch. It is learning to establish it with awareness.
And perhaps this is what Sanjay ji reminded me of that day.
That particular swara came only once in that particular moment. It was an opportunity—but it was also a responsibility. To recognise it. To receive it. And to establish it fully.
Responsibility Towards the Guru
The next responsibility is towards the Guru. A Guru does not simply give us compositions, techniques or musical information. A Guru gives us years of tapasya distilled into teaching. Behind one phrase may be decades of experience. Behind one correction may be generations of knowledge. Therefore, receiving the Guru’s teaching demands humility. For me, Guru-seva was never separate from music. Serving my Guru, spending time with the Guru family, listening to him, observing him and trying to understand his way of life were all part of my education. The lesson was not always:
“Sing this way.”
Sometimes the lesson was simply:
“Be this way.”
Responsibility Towards the Tradition
Dhrupad is not merely a genre of music that we consume, perform or present on a stage. It is a living tradition. It carries the experiences, discipline and wisdom of generations of musicians and seekers. When we receive such a tradition, we become temporary custodians of something much larger than ourselves. This creates another responsibility: to preserve without diluting, and to share without misrepresenting.
We must learn deeply before we teach. We must understand before we explain. We must experience before we claim to have understood. And when we pass it on, our responsibility is not to make the tradition smaller to suit ourselves, but to make ourselves capable of receiving its depth.
Responsibility Towards Sadhana
Dhrupad cannot be understood only through intellectual knowledge. It requires sadhana. The daily practice of Kharaj, The long Alapana, Listening, Breath, Silence, Awareness, Patience, Repetition, And the willingness to begin again every day.
Sadhana teaches us an important truth:
There is no final arrival.
Every day, the same Sa can reveal something new.
Every day, the same swara can become deeper.
Every Alap can expose a new limitation within us.
Therefore, the responsibility of a Dhrupad practitioner is not simply to practise until he becomes good. It is to continue practising because there is always something deeper to discover.
Responsibility Towards the Self
There is also a responsibility towards oneself. To remain honest, To recognise our limitations, To not pretend to know what we have not experienced, To listen to our own voice deeply, To protect the inner space from unnecessary noise. Dhrupad ultimately asks us to become a better listener-not only of music, but of ourselves.
The outer swara becomes meaningful only when we begin to hear the inner silence.
Responsibility Towards the Future
For me, this responsibility eventually took another form. After receiving the blessings and teachings of my Gurus, I felt that my role could not end with my own learning. I had to contribute to the preservation and propagation of this ancient musical tradition.
This understanding became one of the foundations behind the establishment of the Dhrupad Music Foundation.
The Foundation is not simply an organisation for teaching or presenting music. For me, it is an extension of the responsibility I received from my Gurus. A responsibility towards the tradition. A responsibility towards students. A responsibility towards future generations.
And a responsibility towards the knowledge that has travelled through so many generations before reaching us. I have taken a personal resolve to carry this responsibility for as long as I have breath.
The Disciples Responsibility
Over these many years, I have seen many students come to learn Dhrupad. Some come because they are fascinated by the sound. Some come because they want to perform. Some come because they are searching for something within themselves. All these reasons can be valid beginnings. But eventually, every serious student has to ask:
What is my responsibility towards what I have received?
The responsibility to practise. The responsibility to listen. The responsibility to respect the Guru. The responsibility to understand the tradition. The responsibility to maintain discipline. The responsibility to preserve the purity of the learning. The responsibility to pass it forward when the time comes. And perhaps most importantly-
the responsibility to not waste the moment.
Every Moment of Sadhana Is Irreplaceable
I keep thinking about Sanjay ji’s volleyball example.
A player may have played for many years, but the ball that was missed at that particular moment will never come back in exactly the same way.
Music is similar.
The swara we are singing now will never exist again in precisely the same moment. The breath will change. The mind will change. The body will change. The listener will change. The acoustic space will change. And we will change.
Therefore, every moment of Dhrupad practice carries an extraordinary responsibility.
This swara will never come again exactly like this.
Can I receive it fully?
Can I establish it fully?
Can I listen deeply enough?
Can I be completely present?
From Opportunity to Responsibility
Perhaps, then, the question is not whether learning Dhrupad is an opportunity or a responsibility.
It is both.
The opportunity is what we receive. The responsibility is what we do with what we receive.
The opportunity may come through a Guru. The responsibility is to honour the teaching. The opportunity may come through a tradition. The responsibility is to preserve it. The opportunity may come through a moment in music. The responsibility is to be fully present in that moment. The opportunity may come once. The responsibility continues every day.
After twenty-one years of learning and living with classical music, I feel that what I once considered an opportunity has slowly transformed into a lifelong responsibility.
I received Dhrupad from my Gurus.
Now I must carry it.
I received knowledge.
Now I must serve it.
I received a tradition.
Now I must protect it.
And whatever little I have understood, I must try to pass it forward with sincerity. Perhaps this is what it means to become a student.
Not simply to ask,
“What can I receive from Dhrupad?”
But eventually to ask,
“What can I do for Dhrupad?”
That question changes everything. And perhaps the real journey of learning begins there.


